For the longest time, my body and my confidence were anything BUT a Wonderland...

Whether I was a size 4 or over 200 lbs, one thing was certain--I was NEVER happy with how I looked.

When I was a skinny kindergartener, all I wanted was to have some more meat on my bones so my grandmother wouldn't worry about me.

When I was a teeny bopper, I wished my little potbelly would go away.

When I was in junior high and high school, I wished my body resembled more like the typical Asian girl--small, petite and delicate. My extra pounds, my broad swimmer shoulders and my "big-bonedness" made it virtually impossible to fit this standard.

In college, I just wanted to avoid the Freshman 15. No such luck there!

When I was over 200 pounds, I just wanted to be 199 lbs and below.

 

 

On our babymoon trip when I was almost 8 months pregnant (October 2014)

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Me and the hubby (Present Day)

Eventually I did get myself down to a size 4 and got my health back in order.

And while my confidence was higher than it had ever been before, all I could think of was losing ANOTHER 10 pounds to get rid of the tummy I still had.

It wasn't until I got pregnant with my daughter that I COMPLETELY loved my body. No more self-talk. No more adjusting my clothes to "cover" certain parts of my body. No more feeling like my body FAILED me.

Instead, I reveled in it. I wore clothes that accentuated my growing tummy. I smiled when I looked in the mirror. For once, my body was serving a POSITIVE purpose and I completely honored it. I exercised 3-5 times a week to stay strong. I stopped trading in sleep for exercise. I ate well (Hello, Avocadoes and Eggs!) and I didn't fear food. For once in my life, I didn't have to feel like I had to "earn a treat" by beating my body in the ground.

I ended up gaining 37 pounds during my pregnancy which didn't bother me AT ALL up until delivery. The  moment my baby left my body, the negative voices came back. I was once again looking at the mirror, viewing my body side by side to see which side made me look thinner. I cursed myself when nursing didn't help me lose the baby weight.

Even though I eventually got done to one size above my smallest, I still couldn't good about it because the scale said I was 20 pounds heavier than my pre-pregnancy weight. Did I mention that my toddler is still nursing?

Literally overnight, I went from loving my body completely to hating it all over again.

But because I've done so much work with validating my feelings and getting really honest about my fears and my emotions, I've learned how to come out of the cave I'm hiding in anytime I feel especially "unattractive" or "frumpy" looking. I've learned how much my self-worth is tied to how I view myself and as my self-worth has gone up, so has my opinion of how I look.

 

I believe that all of you ladies are already GORGEOUS and SPECIAL in every way that makes you, YOU. You don't need a fad diet or infomercial to make you think otherwise. You just need to finally see it!

I want this for you because I want you realize that no one else gets to be you. Only YOU get to be you, and that is SO awesome. 

Because you are JUST as deserving as anyone else to feel comfortable in your skin, to not have to hide behind baggy clothes and to feel like you are ready to take on whatever comes in your path. 

Imagine a life where you can...

  • Don't criticize yourself every time you pass by the mirror. 
  • You're comfortable in your skin, no matter what size you are.
  • Have a serious confidence boost.
  • Not be fearful of food or missing a day at the gym.
  • Feel healed, at peace and free. 

Enough about me, it’s time we focus on you. Are you ready to say “yes” to you? Ladies, I'm ready to fight the body-shaming demons alongside you, one broad stroke at a time!

What are you waiting for? Hop on a call with me here for a FREE 20 min NEED A FRIEND call to talk to someone who has been there!